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Three years ago i lost someone. Someone very dear to my heart. I cry about it all the time. This lady who died was my neighbor.We share many memories i will never forget. Ever.
She had a special place in my heart; that will never be filled by anyone else.
Nothing else will make up for what she has done or said.
She had impacted so many people and loved so many souls.
I am sad because i remember everything that happen when she was alive and it was awesome and i miss her.
She took me places.
I will always  remember the time she took me to see fireworks. It was so special.
And i also remember the time i was trying to get a bee away from her daughter and then me and her got stung at the same time and same place.
So many memories.

so many tears……… 

I miss her.

BUT I KNOW THAT:

everything happens for a reason!!!!!!!

I love the sky, its full of dreams. When i look in the sky i imagine i’m on an adventure.  The clouds, the moon, the color, the everything about it.

The sky is one of God’s finest paintings. 

EVERYTHING HAPPENS FOR A REASON..

it may be hard to believe but its true.

Bottle of tears, your in me.
The things of life make you
make me want to cry
sometimes.

But, often i get afraid that crying
is a sign of weakness. And i don’t
like weakness.

But then i think, and this is what
i come up with;

Tears in themself are NOT sad.
Its the thinks of life that trigger
feelings. Either happy or sad.
Tears does not mean your sad.

Tears are an instrument of the heart…
… they let emotions in and out of the heart.

I go through trials.
I’ve been through many.
To many to describe.

I am striving to be strong in the LORD.
I am trusting in Him….

And…. when the tears come,
i will let them flow.
Because i know God has a reason for
everything.

Bottle of tears.
People in my life come and go,
but my faith in God and powerful
inward strength that the LORD has blessed
me with will be in me forever.

Bottle of tears, your a weapon and a
precious gift. Bottle of tears i cry you out alot.

God is with me.

I will have faith and apply strength.

Bottle of tears, thank you for being with me today, you’ve taught me alot.

My mind is always full
of thoughts. Crazy thoughts.
Inspiring thoughts. Nice thoughts.
But most of all, thoughts that are
hard to explain.

Alot of times i feel trapped.
Trapped inside an obese mind.
Like my mind is clogged with thoughts.
Sometimes i can’t explain.
Its scary.

Its like i feel alone. Stuck in this
world of thoughts. It feels like it would feel
if i were the last person on earth.
Craziness.

If my mind were a shape, it would be a ring,
and there would be no way out. Just ways in.
Like there would be an in-door for thoughts,
but not an out-door. Its like a ring because
the thoughts keep going round and round and round.

I am learning to make peace in my mind.
Just to think of less things at once.

If i think of everything at once,
it overwhelms me.

My mind is busy.
I want to change the world.

Theres so many thoughts.
To many, maybe. Hence, sometimes
i can’t explain things fully.

I want to change things.
But i’m not God.
But i guess i don’t have to be God
to change things.
But still.

I want peace on this earth.

Where is the peace??

My funky glasses

Converse snow tire

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A flower on a fence.

A hand in the snow.